Part 1… Oklahoma... We have been here for a few weeks now. We were excited to come here but something changed. Or maybe we changed. Or I changed. Maybe the road life just finally caught up with us? Being in OK has been…different, rough, tiring, trying and busy. I haven’t been felling like myself or feeling very pretty. No motivation, no desire, and just over it all. Has it been all that bad, no! Just life has finally caught up to us (or should I say me!). I have 3 kids who are all homeschooled. I am a mom who like to do things by schedule, it keeps us all on task (and my sanity checked). However, since we’ve been on the road we have become a little bit too much laid back. Bed times…late. Wake up…late. School time…late. Getting out the door…late (or even lucky if we can leave the hotel room because of school.) While I know homeschooling is to be laid back, fun, and go as you please. However, this approach doesn’t work with all the kids because a few (we won’t be naming names) take this to the next level. Which then causes a huge fight, then that leads into everyone fighting and then next thing you know it’s dinner time! Finally, we found something that works. Chart and Schedule. Chart has been going on for 2 weeks and things have calmed down. I know my kids are visual, checkmarks, and reward kind of people (hmm, no clue who they picked that up from?!/!). Next week, back to schedule. Because today and till Sunday, I want to be laid back. But next week, the fun begins (I am sure they will be so ever excited about 8:30 bed time and 7am wake up time! Trust me kids, I am not looking forward to 7am either!!) Homeschooling isn’t the only thing that got crazy around here. We have been having to travel a little bit back and forth because of my daughter schooling. Now that’s done, we will be staying put for a little bit. THANK GOD! Then add in all the other stuff that needs attention. Motherhood, marriage, cooking, cleaning, friendships, school work (mine not theirs), and whatever else you can think of. That left me feeling, done. Cooked. Working out or Running, last thing I’ve been wanting to do. Being real here. Maybe it’s the comfort thing. Maybe it’s being lazy. I feel gross, ugly, worn out, lost and just not myself. Am I unhappy, NO! Am I miserable, NO! Just a women doing life. Motherhood, took over. Marriage, effort. School, time. Traveling, energy. Cooking, creativity. The list goes on. Bottom line... I let myself go, again. (just like the other 80,000 million other parents (mostly moms) (we won’t go there) in this world). We all get in this comfortable pattern in life, doing things day in and day out. Only way I know to change is to get uncomfortable (and having support). You can do all the diets. Eat all the protein. Run all the miles. Lift all the weights. Hit all the play on DVDs. Drink all the shakes. Take all the classes. But challenging yourself and taking time out for yourself, whoa game changer! You HAVE to do it, rather to lose weight or to grow. You need to get uncomfortable. The results are far more then amazing. It’s mind blowing. For me, it keeps me going, motivated, and something to strive for beside being a mom, wife, etc.… I don’t do it for the pat on the back (but that’s nice too! New running shoes are nice too, just sayin). I do it to prove to myself, I am worth more. I am still me, Lauren. Not just mama or someone’s wife. This picture, whoa! I won’t go back. I had to do a lot of things that were uncomfortable to there where I am at currently. However, I am not done. Time to get crazy uncomfortable because I want to hit a whole nutha level! We all are busy. We all have bad days. We all have excuses. Some more than others. Either you can stay comfortable and take the risk of feeling broken. OR get uncomfortable and take the risk of growing (and filling up your tank). So today, put all that aside. Stop doing life as day in and day out. Go out there and get uncomfortable. You deserve it.
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