It's FRIDAY!! For some people, it'ts FREEDOM. Last day of the work week. Party!! Payday!! For others, it's THANK GOD because I am tired and the week is over! Let's order take out, rent a movie and pass out! I sent a friend of mine a snap chat recently that it was about to be Friday, they didn't seem to excited! What do the weekends mean for you? Dread it, embrace it, or is it just another day? Normally, Fridays are our REST day because we are all just so done with the week, school, dance, workouts, homework, play dates, capo, etc... BUT this Friday is the LAST DAY of school!!! I am more excited then my girls. They don't want it to be the last day of school, OMG are you KIDDING me?!?! What's wrong with you! As a mom and basically a single mom, that means DANCE is almost DONE! NO more agenda to sign EVERY night! NO more PAPERS to put in recycle bin! NO MORE fighting about putting socks on with tennis shoes (and OMG if you smelled my kids shoes you would BARF!!)! NO more tennis shoes, PRAISE THE LORD!! NO MORE UNIFORMS TO WASH and WEAR!!!! I get to see my beautiful girls in their own style of clothing and not looking like business women!!! (as you can see I am a bit excited about all this!) Also, my check book gets a BREAK! (can I get an AMEN from other mamas out there?!)
So now that school is about to be out our weekends and weekdays will be filled with pool play dates, beaches, Legoland, vacations, and much more. All those things are fun things but can be a nightmare for those training for certain events or trying to stay healthy. LOTS of planning comes in place and of course staying on course. Which is where I fail, the weekends. The last few weekends, I have been good. Skipping eating out (as being the only person who's cooking in the house for us I tend to use the weekend to take off and eat out. No more!), skipping Frozen Yogurt Treats (I have no self control around sugar especially when there is mountains of it!), skipping the wine (not easy when you have a preteen in the house) and been planning out my meals and workouts around our busy weekend schedule. I have found if I plan out my schedule for the week (and weekend) I do better. I am a checklist person. I plan all my meals based on my workouts, play dates, and gatherings. If that means bringing my own food to a party, I do it. Get over what people will say ;) It may seem like a pain but it does get easier as time goes on. I involve the kids too. Don't make it more work then it needs to be. Chicken, apples, veggies and water go a long way. With it being the last day of school, the kids are expecting Frozen Yogurt. Sorry kids, we are hitting the beach instead with a friends. We will play, eat dinner, watch the sunset and laugh! What will you be doing this weekend to stay on track but yet still having fun??
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Sounds. They are all over the place. People. They are making noises all the time. With their mouth. Their feet. Hands. Cars. They roar. Birds. They sing. Stars. They shine bright. Street signs. They give off directions. Objects. Imagines for you to see. You hear them. I don't. You see them. I don't. You take things for granted. I cherish. You enjoy. I get angry. Food. To me, it fills the empty feeling. Feed the anger. Create comfort. Gives me something I can taste, feel, see, and create. Fitness. To me, my escape. Feeds me. Pushes me. Challenges me. Comforts me. Being hard of hearing, sucks. Hearing aids, great tools. But still suck. Big. Ugly. Expensive. Pain to care for. However, creates sounds (even if it's not every sound to be heard). Lets me communicate with my mouth and not with my hands. Lets me be part of today's society. Lets me hear music. Hear my kids. Hear my friends and family. Hear laughter. Hear cries. Having Ushers, sucks. No glasses can fix it. You trip. You fall. You bump. You look drunk. You get frustrated. You get sad. You get piss. You hurt. To have both, you feel as if you been robbed. You wish. You hope. You pray. You cry. You scream. You hit. You run. You smile. You encourage. You push forward. You become strong. You fight. You laugh. You motivate. You dream. You cherish. You forgive easier. You embrace. You laugh more. You cry more. You see beauty in everything, always. You. Just. Be. You. Another day of sitting here drinking my morning Cinnamon Tea, eating my oats with fruit and taking my supplements, for what? Today I am annoyed. I have been working so hard and not seeing any changes. The scale, just plain sucks. I need to really listen to my own advice and stay away from it. The measuring tape, sucks too!
Before sitting down to type this, I have prep for my day. *Gallon of water, ready to be drank. *Snacks in fridge, ready for me to consume. *Lunch in fridge, ready for me to eat. *Workout clothes are on, ready for me to get out the door for my cardio workout planned. *Supplements, ready to be taken at noon and again at night. No reason to fail today's plan since it's all mapped out. I do this day in and day out. What the point of doing all this, when you feel the way you feel today?!?! Really, deep down I know something is working because I am getting stronger and seeing muscles. It's a process and takes time they say. I don't do well with "takes time". I want it NOW! I feel like the girl in Willy Wonka, stomping my feet on the ground, I WANT IT ALL NOW! ;) Struggles are real! They hinder the process if you let it. This is where the mindset and having a great support system comes in place! However, majority of my support system is off in the Virtual World ;) And I have removed myself from that world! GASP!! Yup, I deleted my FB account for a while. I needed to step away from it and focus on what's more important. I won't lie, I miss being encourage and encouraging others. I miss seeing what's happening out in the world. However, I don't miss it that much. It's been nice to not compare myself to this person or that person. It's nice not seeing negative news. It's nice to spend time with my kids, getting to know them on a different level. Not comparing myself to other moms. Just enjoying being me! But what do you do when you don't have that support that you are used to?!?!? *Write. Lots of writing been done lately. Every frustration, every celebration, every wish, everything... some will be shared on here. get as deep as you can get. *Text or call friends. They been awesome with cheering me on. In fact, some friendships have gotten stronger because of this. New ones have been made and old ones have been sent off. *RUN. I pound out my thoughts as my feet pound on the pavement. *Reading! I have read 3 books in the last 3 weeks. My heart is happy. I miss reading. *Personal Development, LOTS of it! Right now I am reading an amazing book and just started it last night and can tell it's going to CHANGE a lot of my Struggles. (BE REAL Because Fake is Exhausting by Rick Bezet) *Music. Gets me moving. *My kids. They keep me busy. You can borrow them any time, they will make you realize your struggles are nothing LOL Before I hit the gym, I get to watch my daughter show me her dance show and her workout she's been working on. She's 4. She makes my struggles easier and worth every minute. I know because of my struggles, she (and the other 2) will be stronger, wiser, and amazing women. Tea is gone, oats have been consume, and my supplements are doing their magic. The easy part is done, now to lace up and go shine ;) |
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