Confident. do you have it? I hear from so many people that I do. I carry it well. If they only knew! When I walk into a room full of people, I am freaking out inside. What if I don't know anyone? What if my outfit looks to dress under or what if I am over dress? What if I bump into someone and they get mad? What if I can't hear? What if people think I am drunk because I can't see or hear? What if they can't understand me because some will say I have a lisp and talk funny? Does my hair look ok? My teeth, white enough? When taking pictures, make sure you get from waist up. God forbid if someone sees my Thighs and my Butt! All those years of dancing made my Thighs look like they need their own house! All those years eating sugar, has taken a toll on my booty! Make sure I am turned to the side so you can't get my hour glass figure. My arms, don't start me there. Confident. I would say it's not something I have. Eating Disorder - been there Diet Pills - did those Surgery - done Braces - had Tan - check All those things didn't bring CONFIDENT. It just gave me more to stress about. Posting these picture... FREAKING ME OUT! ONLY because I know what my flaws are but I also know others won't see them. I also know posting these pictures show you ladies out there, you are never going to look like me and I won't ever look like you. Also Ladies, we ALL have areas we love and hate. I love my eyes and lips. I hate my thighs and butt. Most will say they hate their belly, especially if they are a mom. Lately, (maybe because I am getting older) I am embracing the body I have. I have given birth to 3 amazing girls. I used to weight 276 pounds. I have had my jaw broken twice (not fun. trust me) I have had lumps removed from me. I did the awkward teen years (trust me VERY awkward!) I have scars, I have stretch marks, I have fat, I have flab, and I have dimples in my legs. However, my body looks better now then it did all those years back. Confident is growing on me. :0 Why? How? What's the secret? *Pretty amazing family/friends who are my support system. Being around those who accept you for you. I have had a couple of friends who have helped me come out of my shell and have some fun with myself. Dared me to step outside the box! *Working out with my Beachbody Videos, going to the gym, working with a trianer and being around those who want to better themselves, another great confident boost. *Telling myself 3 things I like about myself each day instead of 10 things I dislike about myself for that day. Being positive. *Healthy eating. When you put good fuel in you, you are ready to take on the world. *Reading my bible. God gave me this body for a reason. Up to me to follow thru with his plans. *My girls. If I am telling them to have CONFIDENT and SELF ESTEEM and I don't, how are they to follow then lead themselves. My oldest told me something a few weeks ago that woke me up! She's watching. It's my job as a mom to teach her to love herself not hate. Does it mean that I don't still freak out?!?! Like posting these pictures or walking into a room. No I still have my moments but they are getting less and less. I am who I am. I look the way I look. I am learning to have fun with my ever changing body. I am embracing it all and personally I think I look better now then I did then. Why, because CONFIDENT is a beautiful thing.
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