I have a secret....
I am not perfect. My life is not perfect. My family is not perfect. My marriage is not perfect. My religion is not perfect. My house is not perfect. My diet is not perfect. I am FAR from perfect. I often hear from people. I wish I was more like you. If.they.only.knew. They tell me you are such an awesome mom. Again, if they only knew. I get told over and over again, I wish I had a marriage like your and your spouse. Again... Truth to be told, I struggle daily. I have struggled more in the last year. Not because of choices we have made but because I am changing. Life is changing. I yell at my kids more then I should. I don't get down and play like I used to. I don't crafts. I don't bake. I don't snuggle as much as I should with the older 2. I don't paint nails. I am not love mushy gushy on them like when they were babies. I do however, install tough love. I play taxi 7 days a week for them. I take them for Frozen Yogurt. I take them to the Beach. We spend time at Lego Land. I swim with them. I read with them. We dance together. We cry, pray, fight and hug it out. But we are not perfect. My marriage is not perfect. The last 6 years have been tough on our marriage. Losing jobs. Gaining new jobs. Moving from our home town to a whole new town. Moving again. New baby. Losing our home. Poor money managing. Fights. Poor communication. Disagreement about the kids. However, we laugh a lot. We go on dates. We go to church together. We raise our girls together. We cry, fight and figure it out as we go. However, we are not perfect. I am not perfect. I am hard on myself. I worry more then I should. I doubt myself. I fake happiness. I cry. I am addicted to sugar. I lie. I am a people pleaser. I have failed at MANY things. I don't manage money well. I can be difficult to be around. I don't complete what I start. I swear. I judge. I cheat. However, I am a lover. I strive for happiness. I make changes. I push. I shove. I am a true friend. I can keep secrets. I love my family. I love my friends. I would give my shirt off my back if asked. I love to encourage. I am a learner. I am honest when needed. I am fun. I love to laugh. But no where near perfect... Nobody is perfect. No Marriage is perfect. No Friendship is perfect. No Body is perfect. No Kid is perfect. No Home is perfect. No Family is perfect. No Church is perfect. That's what makes us perfect <3
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