I don't just want to talk about running since this blog is about journeys. Mostly the journey from being overweight to hopefully fit and lean! I am still consider overweight. I try to not focus on my weight and more on the Body Fat % but that's a whole different blog ;) People ask ALL the time, how do you do it! I can only tell you that it doesn't take over night or a magic pill. It requires you to get up and MOVE. When I started my journey I was 276 pounds. I didn't think I was THAT What started my journey was my dad (he will disagree!) saying something on Hole 1 at Paint Creek Golf course. I will never forget it or the outfit I was wearing. Or the BLUE skies! Lets just say it was enough for me to not want to golf the rest of the course and get home to cry. Instead, it motivated me. I knew that was my wake up call. I started out with I asked a good friend to join the gym with me and to sign up for a kick boxing class. From there I met a guy name Adam Spencer. One thing lead to another, he got me into kick boxing then he told us we should sign up for group personal training. I am so thankful for that. We had so much fun and got fit together. It changed our friendship. Then I had a wedding I was standing up in, so I asked Adam to kick up my training and do one on one. For the 1st time I started to see changes and actually had someone believe in me (who knows it could had been for the I had a great time training with Adam, however we moved from MI to WA and I had to say bye. When we moved, my life took a little adjusting. No family around. It was for the 1st time just Dave, our 2 girls and myself! Not to mention my 1st time being a full time Stay At Home Mom. We found out we were expecting baby number 3. I suffered depression during the 1st few months, then I found my comfort zone and gained weight (from being happy and pregnant!). Had baby, did Weight Watchers and become comfortable with my weight. Something still wasn't right and I needed more. I need a competition. I found a Then the business opportunity came. The business was a come and go for me. I didn't really want to do the business. Then I didn't trust the process. I had all these reason I was in and out. However, I enjoyed teaching others and watching them change. Last year my business took off, I took off and I was confidence I could make the move from Walla Walla, Washington to Sarasota, FL to open up my own club and build a business here. What I didn't know was how TOUGH this was going to be! Not just not tough via business but on my family. Dave gave up his job to support me. We gave up A LOT. However, things have changed. I have changed. I lost confidence. How could you not after being shut down, shut out and let down?!? It wasn't just that, I was telling myself this business wasn't for me. I was feeling guilty (still am) for feeling like I am giving up. However, I don't think I am giving up. I know deep down God put me here in FL for a reason. To open my eyes to paths I need to walk down. I recently started going boot camp classes that a couple does out of their home. Before that I went to a Charity Boot Camp they had MONTHS before with another Herbalife distributor. That Charity Boot Camp, open my eyes. That is what I wanted and the personal trainer idea pop up in my head again. Now that I am going to their boot camp to get a good booty kicking and starting to train with them, I am more driven to make that happen. Am I walking away from Herbalife? No! I will always use their products. I will always suggest to folks to use their products. Am I giving up on Coaching? NO!! (sorry guys! I know I am helping people rather others agree with it! I didn't just lose 115 pounds by being stupid. I have knowledge and experiences to share. No piece of paper is going to stop me from sharing or doing that!) So what I am I doing? Putting my family back together again. Putting myself back together again. I am trusting the process and allowing God to close doors and open others. Do I feel like a failure, SURE! Do I feel I let my husband down, YES! Do I feel like I screwed my kids up, OH YES! But that just means I need to work harder and dig deeper.
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You are not a failure. Those that never try never fail.
7/14/2014 12:37:32 pm
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