I'm writing this as I work out at the gym. I know, crazy!! I am on the bike and this blog been on my mind so what better way to get both in ;) I haven't been running lately because I had hurt my neck, shoulder and back during my training. I was order to stop running. I won't lie, I was happy to!! It's getting hot and humid here. I need to learn how to run in this humidity because I feel like a fat kid X 2 on asthma! Taking a break allow my to focus on strength training and get back into the gym. I've tried out a few classes and I'm addicted to BodyPump at the moment. Also taking a boot camp out of my comfort zone! It spark a different dream and goal for me. Last Friday I was cleared to start running again. This week I have been working at our church camp and putting on 10+ hours, yesterday was my last day of working the camp. I came home and wanted to sleep. My head was killing me, body ache and I have this cough that makes me sound like a smoker! (Rest assured I'm NOT!) Instead I laced up my shoes and braved the heat!! Lately my heart has been heavy with emotions. Death and tragic has been surrounding around me since December. Decisions about where I am to go with my business. Choices I am making about parenting, my marriage, and living situation has been weighing heavy as well. Judgements, feeling homesick, guilt and losing good friends have been catching up to me! So a RUN was in order!! I started my run in 67% humidity, 90 degree weather at 8pm last night. Stating out my legs felt like sand bags, heavy! My lungs felt like they were filled with water. I put on some Kid Rock and went for it. Thank God my favorite song pop up and got me moving. I told myself don't think about time or speed, focus on clearing your head and thanking God for all the goods. Then... I seen a girl get hit by a car while out riding her bike. Just laying there on the ground. As the polices were waiting on help. NOT WHAT I NEEDED! Really?!?! I said my prayers, cried and put on Vanilla Ice! I needed a change of pace and thoughts! I ran, ran and ran till I could pound out all the noises in my head and could feel all the fat pouring out of my body! I seen the sun going down and heard a voice, let it go! Wait! Noooo it wasn't really playing on pandora was it?!? Crap it was, oh well! I kept going with it. Took it as a sign. Sometimes we get so warped up in the moment that we tend to forget the answers we are looking for are right where we at least expect it. So today I choose to... Let it go... Heavy, no more. Well expect in the bum area! Guess thsts my cue to get off the bike and SQUAT!
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